Thursday, March 29, 2012

Thoughtful/Thankful Thursday: Thankful

I can say that I am truly thankful for my life as it is. Things have not and will not always be easy, but there are reasons that we encounter them. I can see the lessons that I have learned in most of my trails. So even though we could have chosen a different path, I don't know looking back on it that I would have changed anything.

We obviously have to live with the choices we have made even if they were really stupid ones. The best thing to do, at least in my opinion, is to look on the bright side of things. Not everything is a positive thing to live through but you are the one who chooses your outlook.

I tend to be one of those people who look at a situation negatively while I am in the middle of it and not find the positive in it until afterwards, hindsight is 20/20. I am usually positive once the worst of something is over, unless I know what the outcome will be.

Right now we are in the middle of what the negative part of me perceives as terrible. However when I look back on it I see a glimmer of hope and some of the lessons we have already learned. We bought our house right before the housing market crashed. So while we can make our payments, there is not much room to get ahead. Out of this crisis, in my eyes, came the lesson of budgeting and planning ahead. We have paid off more debt since purchasing our house than we ever did before. In a way I am thankful for it.

Matt is in school full time and will finish in October. The thought of paying off the student loans has me afraid. My Dad always told me "faith can't reside in the same place as fear". Matt put it to me in a different light the other day, and showed me that we can do it just like we have before. It will not be easy but it is doable. I am becoming less afraid. The best thing about him being done with school, is that he will be able to spend more time with us. I have learned to slow down and cherish the time that I have with him, when he is home.

Kody has always been a bit of a challenge. I love my little boy so much. I have always expected more from people because most of the time they are capable of it and I figure they just don't know it. Having Kody has shown me that my expectations are a little high some of the time and for Kody most of the time they are simply unrealistic. I am working on toning that down, but it is definitely a challenge.

I have had numerous health conditions in the past and while I am doing good now, I have learned that my body can't handle it when I treat it like a teenager. I cannot go all night without sleep anymore. I cannot skip breakfast and lunch and expect to function. Matt saw this long before I realized it.

In a way I am thankful for my limitations, because they make me slow down and smell the roses and re-evaluate what it is I am trying to accomplish.

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